Masturbation first entered my world when I was 11. Before this, I had never really experienced anything of this sort. When I was little, I had a few touchy-touch experiences with friends here and there, but that was pretty much it. As I got older I heard about masturbation from some friends who were in the 8th grade. They would talk about it when I was around, but I never really understood what they truly meant. But as time went by and I got older, I eventually discovered what my friends were talking about this whole time.
My experience all started when I was lying in my bed one summer evening. It had to have been the hottest night that year. I decided to undress and lay there nude to fight the heat. Well, a different type of heat started inside of me. I soon found that when I tried to roll over to lie on my stomach, it was uncomfortable — I had a very noticeable erection, and this caused me to turn back over onto my back. Time went by and my erection did not go down, and I eventually began to touch it and play with it. Until this point I had never realized the purpose of having erections, but I soon found that their purpose would become my favorite thing to keep myself occupied with. By the end of that night, I would experience my first large erection, my first large urge to touch my penis — and my first ejaculation.
Masturbation soon became my favorite thing to do. I'd wait until everyone in the house was asleep and undress under my covers and go at it. This took place almost every night, and I thought the feeling was incredibly amazing. One night after finishing up the job, I lay there and thought about what I had been doing, and this got me to thinking that maybe what I was doing was wrong. I was unsure about this new favorite thing and I had no one really to ask about it. After that point, I'd feel awkward after I masturbated, and this guilt followed me throughout middle school.
While attending middle school, masturbation seemed to be a large topic in the social groups on campus. Girls would giggle as they asked guys if they had done it, and guys were denying it left and right. This made me uncomfortable, since deep down, I knew I did it and I was afraid that I was going to get "caught." There was a rumor that my friend "supposedly masturbated," and this flooded the school halls. Each time his name was mentioned, the question "the guy who jacks off?" always followed. I was so afraid that would become me, so I would try my hardest to stop masturbating before anyone found out. But all my attempts would fail and I would give in. I would go a few days and then ruin it with one quick session.
High school quickly approached, and I masturbated more than ever. I'd go at it every night, sometimes even twice. I was unstoppable. I think as I got older, I became more comfortable with myself, and this caused a change in my thinking. I still felt guilty after I was done, though, but the guilt wasn't as strong. Then when the summer of my sophomore year arrived, things changed. I decided that I was going to read more about masturbation and sexuality, which eventually led me to discovering JackinWorld. I ended up reading lots of different stuff on the matter during that summer. I became convinced that masturbation was not bad, but indeed a good thing.
When I returned to school after that summer, I felt good about my masturbation habits. I was then taking part in its glory at least twice a day, and I was proud of it. If someone was putting someone down for masturbating, I'd mention that I did it to show them that "everybody does it" (even though they probably did it as well but were too ashamed). Also, I began to wonder what it would be like to have a mutual masturbation session. I wasn't sure how that would fly with some of my friends, but it was something I often thought about. Who knows — maybe it'll be something I experience in the future.
My views on masturbation have become pretty much open thanks to JackinWorld, and I freely express my opinions and views on the subject with whomever. Masturbation has also helped me keep an open mind as well, and it is still a large part of my life. Whenever someone says something disapproving, like, "That's dirty," I grin and just say, "It's probably the cleanest thing you could do."
Do you find yourself masturbating more often during some seasons than others? Why?
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The cleanest thing
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