As long as I can remember

I have had erections as long as I can remember, but I was not aware they could be manually induced by playing with your penis until I turned 8. I grew up rather isolated since most of my childhood was spent on a farm and I was an only child. Sex was not taught; you just picked it up. I guess I was not as precocious as some of the other boys my age, since by the age of 8 I knew that if I manipulated my penis for a while I would start getting an erection. I am sure other boys were further along in this area than I was. My usual stimulation was limited to moving the foreskin back and forth and exposing the glans [penis head] and/or rubbing the glans directly, which was highly sensitive then. At about this time I became aware that other boys didn't have a foreskin, from the casual observances at the urinal in the boys' bathroom. I began to attempt to keep my foreskin retracted, but with little success. It would stay back when my penis was erect, but as soon as the erection waned, the skin would quickly slide back over the glans. My foreskin didn't pull away completely past the head -- it seemed to be attached to the coronal groove therefore not exposing the sulcus of the glans, or coronal ridge, which is usually required for the foreskin to stay retracted.

At age 10 I broke the bridge of skin that joined my foreskin to the rim of my glans. I was taking a hot bath and began playing with myself as usual, which quickly induced a strong erection. I began using my usual techniques, particularly the pulling down of the penis skin hard against the base. This would pull on my glans, particularly at the frenulum (underside of the glans), making the tip of the glans bow downward. Eventually the stress tore the adhesion.

In 6th grade, some boys began talking about having some mysterious fluid come out of their penis. They were vague and perhaps unknowing the full detail of how their bodies were changing. I was a year younger than my peers were, so I guess some boys were already at the ejaculation point in their lives. Having heard their stories I became intensely curious about myself. Often I would arrive home from school and go to my room and start examining my genitals. I noticed I was starting to get a few wispy pubic hairs. During the summer of '79 -- I was 11 going on 12 -- I began producing clear [pre-ejaculatory] fluid signaling my impending ejaculation.

It began one afternoon while I was alone at the house. I was particularly horny; I think I probably had a semi- or full erection most of that day. I decided to get completely naked and roam around the house feeling the air brush against my body. My penis was floating in the air in a state of quasi-erection. It tingled on its own. The foreskin still covered about half of my glans, but the foreskin felt tight around it, like a tight Band-Aid. My earlier attempts at keeping my foreskin retracted for prolonged periods seemed to be paying off. As I achieved full erection, my foreskin fully retracted on its own, pulling back past the coronal rim. After roaming around the house for a while, I went back to my room and got on my knees. I watched myself on the mirror attached to my closet door, and I began exploring areas I couldn't see without having a mirror. I admired my butt and its roundness. It was quite hairless at that time, although my legs were starting to get hair along with more wispy pubic hairs. I started pulling my hairless scrotum and my butt cheeks apart. It seemed to arouse me even more. My penis reacted so much stronger that day -- I could see that the glans shined from being fully engorged, and tiny veins were starting to form around my penis shaft.

All of this was new to me, so I tried something else that was new. I wet my thumb and index finger with saliva, formed an "O" with two fingers (like the "okay" signal), and began to lightly rub the rim of my glans with my wet fingers. I immediately got these tingly sensations that ran from the bottom of my feet up to my groin. My glans bulged out even further in response. I did this until I couldn't stand it anymore. It was so intense my knees were starting to buckle. I stopped because I felt I was going to pee. I got this tingly feeling going through my penis, like a drop of urine had escaped -- it gave me the shivers. I grasped my penis tightly and looked to see the large, clear drop of fluid come out. I reached to wipe it away, but the drop formed a long string as I wiped it away. I was confused -- it was not urine, since urine was not this thick or viscous to form a string like this. Did I have my first ejaculation?

I mistook this as my first ejaculation and for a couple of months I stimulated myself to this point of producing clear fluid. I got my first full ejaculation two months later. I thought I had broken some plumbing inside.

The last major event in my sexual life was getting circumcised at age 21.